Friday, I had an ultrasound performed to determine how long I was expecting. It appears that I'm only 5 weeks pregnant because it was too early to see a baby. Doug and Katie went with me, but there was nothing to show Katie. She did fine inside the ultrasound room; however, she didn't like the idea of me leaving the room a couple of times. The tech gave her a sucker for being such a good girl sitting with her Daddy and waiting on Mommy.
Doug took us shopping after we left the doctor's office. Belk had a good sale on their toddler clothes. I got Katie a cute corduroy dress with fairies in pastel colors. They are gradually getting their Christmas outfits and Winter coats, but they are not on sale. I'll have to watch these items and hopefully snag them up when they go on sale.
When we got home that night, I began to spot. The nurse and Technician told me that I would spot a little after doing the ultrasound. They said that if I did spot to just take it easy and if it fills up a light days pad, then I needed to call the office. Well only a little bit showed up on the piece of TP. It's real scary when this happens. Before I noticed the bleeding, I was trying to decorate the house for Fall. Needless to say, I stopped and took it easy the rest of the night. Saturday morning, I bleed a little more as soon as I got out of bed. Doug had left to get new brakes on the car. I panicked and called my doctor's office. Dr. Ray was on call and quickly called me back. He reassured me that spotting was normal, but make sure I'm not having a full blown menstrual. He said I would know the difference. I asked him why my body was doing this because this never happened with my first baby. He told me every pregnancy is different. He reminded me to take it easy the rest of the day or until the bleeding stops, which includes heavy lifting, pulling or exerting myself. He continued to say that if I lay down or sit for a long period of time, the spotting could appear a little heavier. He said that since I was so early in my pregnancy, their was nothing we could do except wait. All day yesterday, I bleed off and on but nothing to fill up a pad. Of course, I've been scared out of my wits. Doug tried to comfort me, but really didn't know what to do or say. I knew I had to go to the Lord. As I was laying on the bed in a fetal position, crying, I wanted God to hold me and tell me everything was going to be alright. At first, I really didn't want to talk to anyone. Doug explained the matter to those who called concerned about me. I want to thank you for the calls and I appreciate you and the prayers. This morning, I'm still spotting so who knows what's going on with my body. Doug has been so attentive with me and Katie. He has really stepped up taking care of Katie and myself. He may not say anything about it (feelings), but I know he is just as disappointed. I think he was really excited about having another baby. The first question you want to ask God is "why?" I know in my heart and soul is this is happening for a reason. Who knows maybe our baby will pull through all of this and we will still have a baby in June. If it is the Lord's will to go ahead and take this baby with Him, all I ask is for His understanding and I will be sensitive enough to see the purpose for this chapter in my life, so I might help someone else. I understand there is a purpose for everything, no matter how hard it is to handle at times. I ask for your continued prayers for a safe and healthy pregnancy and if it is not God's will then I need His strength to get me through this in one piece. Thank you and I love you!